September 20, 2007
I don’t know where to turn anymore. My family relationship is getting worse and worse, and when I try to open up to my friends, they just blow me off because I have been unrealistically known as the easy going, happy girl.
I love my jesus, but this is getting my focus off of him, making fall deeper and deeper. I was struggling with suicidal thoughts in 7th grade, and they are coming back again…Is there anything I can do to help me deal or something? I’m scared. Katherine
Hi Katherine,
If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, you need to tell someone that you trust. Perhaps a pastor or youth pastor or a school counselor.
Suicidal thoughts are deceiving. They fail to take in the fact that life can change overnight. My friend Darrin (read his story) tried to take his life. It is something he regrets to this day. He now has a beautiful little girl and boy and wife, and thinks about what he would have missed if he had given in to the feelings of the moment.
When you talk to the adult, please tell them that you are unhappy and that you need to talk to someone. If they don’t take you seriously, let them know how serious that you feel.
Can I tell you something? God cares very much about how you are struggling right now. He sees you. He sees what can be in the future. He knows what is just around the corner.
I will pray for you today, Katherine. But as I pray, please talk to someone today. Keep talking until you can share these thoughts face to face with someone who will help you until the feelings are no longer so big in your life.
Father, I pray for Katherine. Thank you that she is reaching out. I pray that you wrap your arms around her and love her and let her know how valuable her life is. You have a plan for Katherine. That plan isn’t just the future. It’s right now. You are walking with her daily. You care about her family. You care about her relationships. Help her to see not only her need, but the needs of others, as one day she will be able to reach out to those seeking hope. Because you are her hope. In Jesus Name
Thank you, Katherine, for being so honest.
Debbie says:
Hey Katherine,
I don’t know what you’re going through, but I understand what you’re feeling.
And the best comfort to be found is in God’s arms. No matter the storm, that is the BEST place to run to. (In the Psalms, David repeatedly calls God his refuge)
I particularly love reading the Psalms. There are so many, many promises in Psalms:
“The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart;” –Psalms 34:18 (KJV)(Nigh means near in Old English)
“He [God] healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.” –Psalms 147:3 (KJV)
Another thing that I really enjoyed when I was hurting emotionally was to go through the New Testament looking for incidents where Jesus healed people. It reminded me that He still does heal. It doesn’t happen overnight as we want or expect…it happens little by little, moment by moment.
The healing process can be different for a Christian, we can look back on a chapter in our lives that was once painful and say, “God held me. He carried me through that time.”
Just let Him carry you. God LOVES you. You’re His daughter…and He longs so much to just wrap His arms around you and let you know how crazy He is over you…just let Him. Don’t fight it…
Debbie
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BJ Hamrick says:
Hi Katherine,
Thanks for reaching out. It takes a lot of guts to share these thoughts. I’ve been there — in a place where it hurts enough to want it to end — but I’m so glad I didn’t take my life. There’s so much I would have missed. I know things feel hopeless right now, but don’t take the easy way out. Keep looking until you find someone who can help you through this. You can read my story of healing by clicking on the interview Suzie did with BJ Hamrick a few days ago. Hang in there.
Nicole Stahl says:
I know so many kids that are in your position. One of my friends David hates living with his Aunt and Uncle. They don’t treat him with any respect! He is a Christian and sometimes he doubts God. But I just want to let you know that God has a plan for your life. Please do not end it, you see, I lost friends to suicide. And it hurts so many people even if you think it won’t, But it truly does. God has an amazing plan for you. Don’t forget, he sent his son to die on the cross for you. I mean that’s a BIG sacrifice. All I can say is, the devil knows you’re a believer and hes going to try everything in his power to make you want to end your life. He hates the fact that we worship such a wonderful God. Don’t feed into his game plan. Stay strong……Listen, I would like you to visit my site.. http://www.myspace.com/life_with_a_purpose
I dont know if you have a myspace but you should add me. And tell me what you think….